GNO

Once a month my friends and I get together for a Girls Night Out and January was no exception. The night started off great but as soon as we got to the bar things seemed to turn sour for Jonni. She just didn't seem to be herself, she kind of went off with Susan and was kind of being rude to everyone else but whatever we let it go. Well around 11:30 Jonni decided to start some shit with my friend Jenifer & her boyfriend Brandon. I am not really sure what even started it but Jonni started bringing stuff up that happened two weeks prior and there was no call for it. So I told Jen & Brandon to just ignore it Jonni was drunk and she was talking out her ass. Jonni got mad @ me for saying that and went off next thing I know I am leaving and my husband is asking why so I told him it was because of Jonni and I just wanted to go home and not have any drama. Pretty soon Jonni comes out to the car and me and her get into a physical fight. All she did was pull my hair and scratch @ my face finally I grab her hand to pull it off of my face and as I am putting her hand back to her she bites my first and middle finger on my left hand....what are we fucking two year olds? Who bites people?!?! Anyway, I got mad & punched her in the face a couple of times and punched her in the sides finally my husband pulls the two of us apart and I get into my friends 4-Runner. That bitch opens the door and punches me in my cheek bone and it starts to swell, immediately I go to kick her out of the car and I kick her in the forehead but I was wearing high heels so it split her forehead open. Jonni falls to the ground and Mike shuts my car door and Nicole locks the door because they didn't want Jonni & I to continue fighting anymore. So Jonni goes back into the bar and my friend Shawna helps clean the blood off of her. The next morning Jonni's drunk ass truely believes I kicked her in the head so she beat my ass....WTF? She only punched me once and she fought like a little bitch. Ummm I don't think so. Needless to say she and I are no longer friends. What a dumb bitch.

Merry Christmas

I hope all of you have a safe and wonderful Christmas.

Accidents....

Wednesday night/Thursday morning Mike and I were leaving Last Call, several of the intersections were still without power from Sunday's ice storm and Mike accidentally drove through one with out coming to a complete stop. He was pulled over by the cop and arrested for a DUI. I panicked because Mike's car is a standard and I can't drive one and the cop took Mike to jail and just left me there. I was lucky and Mike's friend Aaron picked me up and let me chill @ his place until I could get a ride downtown to bail Mike out of jail. It cost me $50 to bail him out b/c his brother is an attorney and knew the bondsmen so now Mike & I have learned a little lesson.
A. Our priorities were way screwed up
B. We shouldn't drive if we have had too much to drink
C. I really should learn to drive a standard
D. This is going to be expensive as hell!

Girls Night Out

Friday night I went out with my friends Jonni and Jeanna for a Girl's Night Out. We kicked off the evening @ Jonni's apartment and finished off three bottles of wine...lol. After that we headed downtown to Dirty's and had a great time. Around midnight or so we met up with my husband and his friend @ Last Call, there my friend Sandy and his friend Jamario showed up. After the bar closed down we headed over to Jonni's apartment to watch midget porn, but it wasn't nearly as entertaining as I thought it would be. For some reason drama broke out @ Jonni's. I am not really sure why either, there was no reason for drama at all. My husband and his friend had decided Mike was going to take him home and Jeanna and I were to meet them over there. Somehow Jonni decided she was going to take me over there and told Jeanna my husband told her to take me over there, which never happened. So I thought my husband just left me @ Jonni's with no ride and I was pissed. It got really ugly and all for no good reason. Jonni should have just stayed out of it and everything would have been great! Oh well. Other than the end of the night we had a great time.

Ice Storm

Sunday evening an ice storm hit here in Tulsa. Thanks to that storm, most of the city has been without power. I am one of the lucky ones who never lost power; we only lost some tree limbs out of our tree out front. My work lost power so I haven't been into work since Friday...awwwhh it's been nice! I just got word though that the lights have come back on but we have no heat and our computers don't work, so I still have to go in tomorrow; I just won't be able to do my job and I will have to do some filing or something. This way I won't have to go through all my PTO time so I don't mind going in. When you drive up down the streets here in Tulsa it looks like a war zone or something. In most neighborhoods you can't even see the streets because of all the limbs blanketing the streets. Driving down Peoria the power lines are all over roads, it's pretty dangerous to say the least. For now the ice is melted and people are starting to slowly get power back and return to normal, but we are suppose to get snow Friday night but I am sure it won't accumulate to much.

My Mama-part 2

After spending 20 days in the hospital my Mom got to come home a week after Thanksgiving. She still has to be on oxygen at night but other than that she is doing great. She is finally getting her energy back and is getting back to her old self again. YAY!

My Mama

On Halloween we found out that my Mother has esophageal cancer. She had surgery 11/8/07 to have her esophagus removed and they replaced it with her stomach. My Mom came into the hospital weighing 216 pounds, today they weighed her and she is down to 180 lbs. She is still currently in ICU because she keeps going into respiratory distress. I feel so bad for her because I seriously doubt she will be home for Thanksgiving and that is a big thing @ our house. I tried to explain to her that we will just celebrate it up here at the hospital and everything will be fine. I will do my best to make it a special day for her. I really hope she pulls thru this, I cannot imagine my life w/o my Mother. She has become my best friend I guess now would be the time to tell her that but I just don't want to be all sappy. I will update later

The Cool Fat Chick

So I went to counseling on Friday and my therapist believes that I have become "lost" in my "cool fat girl" persona and because of that I cannot lose the rest of my weight. Because if I were thin, who would I be? So I started thinking about it and perhaps she is right. I have always been the funny fat girl who has no problem making fun of myself, what would I be funny about if I lost all my weight? On Wednesday she is going to do some hypnosis therapy with me to help me release the weight, I am curious to see if it works or not.

She also pointed out to me that I don't have very many nice things to say about myself. At first I thought she was crazy for saying that but now that she has brought it to my attention she is right. I am really good at pointing out all my flaws and I say them to myself every day. That's not good, so I am going to work on that as well.

It's a lot of work...

My husband and I started marriage counseling a couple of weeks ago, and so far things seem to be going well. Our first session we did together and that went horrible. All we did was yell and scream at each other but once we got home we had a great conversation and got everything out without yelling and made head way. I finally confessed to him that I had stepped out on him once. I didn't sleep with the guy but I did more than a married woman should have. My husband already had suspisions but he didn't have solid proof. He is having a hard time dealing with it but we are doing our best to work thru it. He is doesn't trust me of course and can't get over the fact that I lied to him several times when he asked me about it. But at least he is willing to work this out and not just leave me.

For me, if the tables were turned I wouldn't be like my husband. I know that it is human nature to be attracted to other people. I know that we all make mistakes. So for me I expect him to cheat on me sometime during our marriage so I am already prepared for it I guess. He never thought I would do something like this to him, so he is destroyed. What I did was shitty, I am not going to deny that. I am not even sure why I did it.

I guess I was looking to feel wanted and desired and that is something my husband just doesn't do anymore. I realize we have been together for almost four years so I am sure he is bored of having sex with me so I guess I am going to have to find a way to spice things up or something. So far things do seem to be getting better though so hopefully he and I will make it. I really don't want to divorce him. I love him more than anything, I just had a moment of selfishness.